Suspicion

One of the worst things for me about this whole heroin deal — right now — even while my kids are in a place of not using — is the constant suspicion.  Do you ever get over it?  Are there any other parents out there dealing with this who are in a place where you are not constantly suspicious?  I sure hope that somewhere along the way, this state of mind will leave me.  I really don’t like it.  Do I ever get to trust my boys again?