Relapse

I was sure I posted about this several days ago.

My addict son relapsed.  Truth:  he relapsed the day after he got home from rehab.  I found him in the garage, needle in hand, Monday night.  I told him to leave.  It makes me sick — his shooting up, being out on the street, the lies, my boy…gone.  I feel like my son is dead.  I am emotionally shut off from him and I don’t know how to love him.

What happens now?

Prayer is all I have left where he is concerned.  And I know that God can heal all things, is stronger than all things, and loves my boy more than I do.  Prayer is all I have.

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3 responses to “Relapse

  1. Thanks for the post.
    You do love you son and it shows in your post. the best thing you can do for him is to not allow him to abuse you any more. His addiction turns him into someone else. continue to pray for his recovery, and head to an Alanon or Naranon meeting. It will do you a world of good to be around others who are going through something similar!

  2. Kay,
    I am so sorry for this setback. I think it is more typical than not. From my reading and time spent in AlAnon, most alcoholics/addicts seem to need several treatment sessions before they “get it”. Do not despair. Your son knows more now, after having gone through treatment once, then he did before. He did, I’m sure, take something with him from that experience. And, your son is very resourceful. Most addicts are. Just get out of his way and allow him to find his own path to recovery. Easier said than done, I know. I am learning that no matter what I say or don’t say, my addict daughter will more likely listen/respond to a random stranger than to a family member. I’m talking to myself, as well. Get the love, encouragement, and support you can. And focus on taking care of yourself. Thinking of you, Peggy

  3. So sorry for your son’s relapse. This is my biggest fear when my daughter comes home. Hope things have changed this since this November post. How do you learn to trust again?

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