It’s late and I’m going to try to sleep now. The news of the day is that my middle boy, Al – 18 y.o. – is using again. His dad found evidence in his room and confronted him with it. His dad asked him to come up with a plan of action. Later, his dad found a note: “I don’t want to cause the family any more pain. I’m taking off for a couple of days. Don’t worry, I have someplace warm to sleep. I’ll call you in a day or two.” He took some clothes, a blanket, and $100. It’s very cold and very snowy in Colorado right now.
Yup. I’m going to try to get some sleep. I’m not ready to feel the fear. Either that or I’m growing numb. Because all i feel is tired.
But don’t despair. God is bigger than my worries and bigger than Al’s addiction. one day…one night at a time. God bless.
One Mom Talking: The ongoing story of one mom, three teens, and heroin. 
Sending you a hug. Sleep well.
I wish i was there once again to give you a huge hug. You are an amazing woman and God will guide you through this journey. My prayers today are that Al is safe and warm and you can get some rest.
Interesting…numb is a feeling I have learned to embrace because fear is so overwhelming for me now.