Do you ever feel like addiction has taken over your identity? I know some of you get this. You don’t have to be the person taking the drugs to find yourself a victim of this sneaky identity theft.
I don’t come by here as often as I used to; and sometimes I feel selfish for staying away. Sure, I started this blog in part for myself, but more in the hopes that my sharing would help others. And now I’m staying away – because, at least in part, I’m protecting my identity. This blog has inadvertently preserved some intense emotional memory for me. Frankly, I don’t want to remember those feelings most of the time.
My boys are doing well right now, although we all know that could change on any day. But while they’re clean, I find myself snatching back pieces of my identity as often as possible, and pushing away this one part of who I am – and always will be.
Who am I now? Where will life take me next? No idea – or way too many ideas. For now, I’m just One Mom Talking. God bless you all!
I really try to make sure the addiction that continually touches my life does not define it. Lately it is a full time job.
Madyson – you’re the one who got me thinking about this in the first place! I’m glad you’re here. And I’m glad you’re you. (Yes, you still are you, even in the midst of it all).
even those of us who blog find time to do other things and not let addiction define us… good to read they are well