Dan has been out of rehab for ten days now and seems to be doing well. And yet I am still tense. Today I thought “you can let your guard down now” and the meaning of that phrase hit me strongly. I realize I’m not ready to let my guard down. I want that guard standing watch!
I need steady reminders that God is my Guard and is always standing watch. And yet, I still feel that I need to be vigilant in my household. I wish I could say that I really miss Dan and that I want him to come back to this house. I miss him a little, but if he came over just for dinner once a week, that’s really ok for me right now.