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I was trying to get clever with my title but this is the best I came up with.

This entry is not about Dan.  There is a lot to say about him.  Our roller coaster has been on its track and in motion lately, for sure.  But I have a different ponderance today.

You know there are just so many hours in a day.  And so much to do.  I like coming here and telling the story where it can benefit others, and where I also receive support from you all — this is a wonderful medium.  But … I really want to WRITE.  I don’t mean “write” as in create a string of words, generally.  I mean WRITE as in hold a pen in my hand and put ink to the page.  It’s a different process — writing — than typing is.  There’s just something intimate about it for me.  And I want to go back to my daily journaling.  But then, I might show up here even less than I do now.

This is not really some big problem or anything.  Just what I’m thinking about today.  And so if I’m gone again for awhile, it might just be because I’m writing.   And that’s a good thing.

More on Dan soon though.  Today he’s in a local rehab place doing ok.  Today.  Amen.

Hope you’re all doing well.  I will visit your blogs this weekend and check up on your lives.  God bless. 

  You all know this feeling.  I don’t like roller coasters at amusement parks; I surely don’t love them in life.  Glad I got my hug the other day, because Dan has come and stolen from my house since then.  Smallish things.  But nonetheless.  He lied to his sister to get access to the house and then stole something from his brother’s room.  He would have taken my bike the other day except that we got home before he could do it. 

Everybody, raise those hands up and… “AAAHHHHHhhhhhhhhhh”

I have dear friends, a couple, whose baby was stillborn.  To work through her grief, the mom, Rebecca, has started an organization “Knits of Grief” and a blog in support of other families who suffer this terrible type of loss.  I want to support her by giving her a little boost here.  Just as we, as parents of addicts, help each other along via blogland, so she will do the same.  If you know anyone who might need this type of support, please pass this along.  Even if you don’t, if you’re touched by the blog, Rebecca’s writing, or this topic, I’d appreciate a little help for her by spreading the word:  http://knitsofgrief.blogspot.com/.   THANKS!

Had a tough day.  A few extra demands on my energy at church, of all places, and I lost it.  Happily, my friends came to the rescue, at church and after.  Ready to get a good night’s sleep now.  Glad to not be going it alone.    And in honor of my allies, here’s a little stroll down memory lane:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EmOtWyjs8iU

I really want to have one of those Blogroll thingies with the little pics of everyone on my sidebar like all you Blogspot people have, but I can’t figure out how to get it on here.  If anyone can help, send me a message.  Please and thank you.   (Don’t you love my tech-speak?)

Thank you to everyone who responded with reminders of Hope after my last post.  I do realize that where there is breath, there is hope.  Even beyond this life, there is Hope.  Sometimes we get tired.  Sad.  Lost.  And yet God remains, and Hope shines through. 

Today we celebrate my middle boy’s 18th birthday.  Hope alive.  God bless you all!

With Dan, it’s been a series of unfortunate events lately.  He used a second time since rehab, and he got back to recovery after.  That’s twice.  But then yesterday, he was in a car accident.  It wasn’t his fault; some guy ran a red light.  And then today, I guess his car was such a wreck already … then the accident …. today he was driving down the highway and the hood just fell off his car!  Then he found out he was overdrawn at the bank.  And then he got fired from his job.  The good news is that amidst all of that, he did not use.  But I worry that he will tomorrow or the next day.  He sees no hope.  His eyes looked so vacant. 

I’m going to sleep now.  But I sure wish I had some real hope to give him.

Greetings Everyone!  My apologies for being gone so long; and thanks to those who have checked up on me these past couple of weeks.  I have been doing ok, but just taking refuge in God’s love, my real-time friends, my family, and on-line word games, lol.  One of those times when I tired of my addict-mom i.d. and needed a break from the computer screen.  Missed you all though…and always keep you in my prayers.

Update:  my son relapsed last week and ended up in the hospital.  The police found him, during his break from work, passed out in his car in the mall parking lot.  They brought him to the hospital.  They did not arrest him, thank God.  And he is fine.  He did not lose his job — another miracle.  Seems people are now trying to help him move forward.  Even those who don’t know him well.  Angels on earth.

Good news:  Yesterday Dan sat before a Community Corrections board (picture big long wooden conference table with suited community leaders on one side and Dan on the other, ha).  He must have done well because they approved his entrance into a Diversion Program.  Two years supervision and if he does well, he moves forward with a clean record!  No felony record!  He is so very excited and this is a great motivation for him, and confirmation that all adults/the corrections system are not out to get him, but are trying to help.  So please keep those prayers coming!

That’s all for now.  Be well.  Pray often.  Stand in the sunshine (we have some sunshine in Colorado today).  And be generous with Love.  God bless!

I’m too late for this, but I thought it was a great idea, so I’m posting this anyway.  Chris, writer of “Enchanted Oak” blog, challenged bloggers to post a list of simple things that make us happy.  For every list posted before midnight LAST NIGHT, she promised to contribute $2 to needs in Haiti.  Cool idea!  Here’s the link to her blog:  http://chrisalba-enchantedoak.blogspot.com/.  Please visit her.  She’s doing good stuff and I want to encourage that.  And, just as a way to start my day off with a bit of sunshine, here’s my list for right now:

• Hugs from my kids
• My silly little dogs snuggling by me at night
• The smell of cinnamon
• Candlelight
• Playing the piano
• A glass of wine at the end of a long day
• My morning radio DJs who always make me laugh!

Have a great day, my friends!!  And post your own list — just because you can 🙂

I appreciate you ladies who chimed in on my last post!  I’m allowing my mind to clear, dispelling the fear, and letting my imagination draw up scenes of what I really hope for in my own life.   These are pictures of where I hope to be in the not-too-distant future.