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Dan has been out of rehab for ten days now and seems to be doing well.  And yet I am still tense.  Today I thought “you can let your guard down now” and  the meaning of that phrase hit me strongly.  I realize I’m not ready to let my guard down.  I want that guard standing watch!

I need steady reminders that God is my Guard and is always standing watch.  And yet, I still feel that I need to be vigilant in my household.  I wish I could say that I really miss Dan and that I want him to come back to this house.  I miss him a little, but if he came over just for dinner once a week, that’s really ok for me right now. 

My daughter, Cathy, is 15.  She has been on the couch for three days now with an injured hip.  (Find story in earlier post “Family Night?”)  The pain meds are not helping. 

The weird thing is … there is no bruise at all.  How could that be??

The other issue:  my daughter is 5’6″ and 105 lbs.  Most women in my family are tall and thin, so that’s not so strange.  But she has awful eating habits.  She doesn’t like to sit at the table for dinner.  She eats mostly sugar and carbs (bread, noodles, some cereal).  She eats dry packets of instant oatmeal.  Ew.

Today I went in her purse to get her ipod headphones for her.  I found a plastic sandwich bag with stool softeners.  They are the over-the-counter type.  Generic.  I can imagine that she might need them due to the lack of fiber in her diet.  But I also worry about eating disorders.  This isn’t the best time to deal with it, with the hip issue going on.  But I’m not sure what to do next with her.  Certainly she’s been under a lot of stress, like alls of us, with the drug issues that went on here over the past year with her brothers. 

Just needed to type it out.  As I type, I’m seeing a situation that calls for mild intervention.  Maybe the school counselor.  Maybe teen alanon.  Maybe a few sessions with a private counselor if I can get her to go. 

Oy.

One thing I don’t like about this blogging process is that the beginning of the story can get lost.  That’s okay for me, myself and I.  But part of the purpose of this is to support others who are just starting the walk.   I know you could find your way to the beginning of my story if you tried.  But I’d like to make it easy.

To that end, here is the link to my very first post here.  It feels like such a long, long time ago…

https://onemomtalking.wordpress.com/2009/09/13/introduction/

I am happy today, after a long break from online writing, to post something that has nothing to do with heroin or addiction or any of that.  Today I was introduced to a blog, created by a new online friend.  The blog is titled “Beauty in Wisdom” and it is the result of a photographer’s journey into the beauty of aging.  Well thank goodness someone is doing this!  I have been so disappointed to see aging women trying to look like they are young girls.  It really hit me the last time I saw Marlo Thomas on the tv news.  Sure, I can understand a little “nip and tuck” but this is ridiculous. 

I’m concerned about the message our younger generations are receiving when so few women in the public eye are willing to grow old gracefully and allow the wisdom of their age to shine through their eyes…to allow the wisdom of their age and the incredible experiences of their lives give life to wrinkled skin so that it can be seen as BEAUTIFUL.  There is beauty in aging.  There is beauty in wisdom that only comes with age. 

Anyway — please check out http://beautyofwisdom-robbiekaye.blogspot.com/, and if you appreciate RobbieKaye’s wonderful work as much as I do, let her know it.  Let’s support each other wherever and whenever we can.  Thanks!

How many times will I need to learn these lessons?  Do we ever remember them, or do we continue to slip away, climb back up, slip away…. ?  I realize I’ve been at this a short time.  It’s only been eight months since I first learned that my son even tried heroin.  A shorter time since I first used the word “addict.”  I’m already tired.  How do you do this for years?

http://intervene.drugfree.org/2009/11/7-truths-about-my-addict-that-took-5-years-to-learn/

Here it is … a life with God.  If days are dark and you are living in fear, take a moment to seek the “peace that passes all understanding.”  Yes, there are difficult times in life, but God will make the difficult worthwhile in one way or another.  I am finding my way back to my Path and all the things I’ve been through — even the most painful — will come together for good … as long as I keep my focus on my Creator and remember my identity in Christ! 

I Choose Happiness

Thanks to Siddique Memon for this image.  I took it from facebook.  I think it’s beautiful!